I've been away doing some personal soul searching or reflecting on my life, something like that...and through it all I've had so much school work to do and for most people you get lost in the mix of books, papers, and yellow highlighters.
So when I was messing around with my borrowed camera I figured out how to do timed shots. This way I could photograph more than my larger than normal head! Which was exciting but frightening at the same time.
I've been into health lately and I would always watch shows about people changing their unhealthy lives for better ones, and these timed photos would make me face what I've been avoiding ever since I started documenting my life on the internet.
What other people see when they look at me...
It's easy to take a picture of your mug and keep it moving...it's yours, you know its best angles and how to make it look its best. But your body is something completely different. Even standing in a mirror sometimes doesn't truthfully show you what you have until its frozen in time as a permanent reminder of what people see you in your everyday life.
But in getting to the point, a week ago when i took my first body picture in YEARS was the day I realized that I wasn't where i needed to be. How have I been fooling myself for the last couple of years pretending everything was fine when in reality my health has been going downhill and so has my body.
To be honest...I'm tired of my personality making up for my fat ass. I have no problem with being plus sized I just think Ive gotten out of control. I will never be a size 2, but where I currently am is unacceptable in my eyes. I am beautiful but I am not reaching my full potential, and that's that.
A week in the life...
xoxo
